Had to call in Granny I was so weak I could not look after my little boy. All I felt was faint, that I needed to lie down, and my limbs weak with my mind saying “not sleep again it is so boring! there is so much to do , to create!” I shut down twice today. Lay in the same place out like a light for two hours per shutdown. What is tomorrow going to be like? Could it be anemia again? All I know is the fatigue is back and in my way – how am I to handle this? What am I to learn. I feel I have a long way to go with no energy to make it. It’s been coming on over the last two days. The feelings of gloom – unable to enjoy my baby boy, needing to take time for extra sleep – not wanting to get up.
Take a look at a common sight I find next to my bed most days. Inspiration.
Going to kiss my baby in his sleep - I missed him today