Had to call in Granny I was so weak I could not look after my little boy.  All I felt was faint, that I needed to lie down, and my limbs weak  with my mind saying “not sleep again it is so boring! there is so much to do , to create!”  I shut down twice today.  Lay in the same place out like a light for two hours per shutdown.  What is tomorrow going to be like?  Could it be anemia again?  All I know is the fatigue is back and in my way – how am I to handle this?  What am I to learn.  I feel I have a long way to go with no energy to make it.  It’s been coming on over the last two days.  The feelings of gloom – unable to enjoy my baby boy, needing to take time for extra sleep – not wanting to get up.

Take a look at a common sight I find next to my bed most days.  Inspiration.

Going to kiss my baby in his sleep  - I missed him today

 

My Mom had a strict way of making her bed for years.  It felt like 20 different pillows and stuffed ornaments that had to be strategically placed when you wanted to do the favor of making Mom’s bed so I rarely did. (it was my Dad’s bed too and I had a secret love watching him tear up the entire Biggie Best Bazaar of a bed before getting into it. Sometimes he went to bed late no doubt to avoid the battle of harvesting a meadow of tiny florals and frills to get to bed.  It was also required by Mom that Priscilla bear and her friends, one a fat hen, were gently removed from the bed and placed gently on top of the double meter high piles of scatter cushions also from the bed.  I caught dad more than once smacking ‘Henny Penny’ off the end of the bed in the middle of the day just for a secret laugh.  I’m sure I rugby tackled Henny a couple of times too)

Thus from the past is my present bed making philosophy derived – shown above – simple and every day different like painting a new picture to invite me to bed – that is on the days I get around to making it!

 

Cleaning out a paper pile I found a birthday card with a sunflower.  I immediately wanted to keep it but where to put it?  I then thought if I cut on the outline of the card I could bend the rest to make a stand and all I would see is the sunflower and her beautiful shape and colours.  Now it can stand where ever I need it.

 

The creative juices flowed for my little man’s first Birthday.  The party theme was Soccer as our nation was hosting the Soccer World Cup at the time.  My solution for the cake was a double chocolate sponge iced in butter icing and Smarties to create the soccer ball pattern.  I wanted it to be ‘homemade’ like as those were my best cherished cakes and birthdays from childhood.  I needed to be economical too.   I had fun planning the design and got to eat a whole box of Smarties in preparation.

His reaction was face planting himself straight into the cake coming away with a whole mouthful and icing mustache - professional plastic icing would never of allowed such a fun reaction!

 

A tin and strip of wrapping paper rapped around it lifts my spirits.  A sense of “I made this” it says to me – and it is over 10 years old already and it can hold so many pens!

(I really don’t know why there is a plastic fork in here – must of been part of an old art quest – we did funny things in Design School)

 

Something to fill an empty basket

 

Not too bad for us who already live here in Africa.  Our new family missionary – following the path of his father, brother and his good friends in the mission field for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.  Two years away from home to be served in the Durban South Africa Mission  with only mail contact to back home – how grateful we are for electronic mail.  Enjoy our missionary, it is truly a character building experience that will stand you in good stead your whole life through : )

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